Tuesday, May 03, 2016

50 Things Every Woman Should Have by age 50.:

1. An old boyfriend who makes you smile with melancholy when you remember him and an old boyfriend who makes you proud of how far you've come.
2. A piece of furniture that has never been previously owned by anyone in your family that you bought with your own money and makes you happy.
3. An outfit that makes you feel invincible if your future employer or man of your dreams calls to meet you in an hour.
4. A set of lingerie that you would not be ashamed to be seen wearing.
5. At least one scar on your heart where HE hurt you.
6. A past juicy enough that you’re looking forward to retelling it in your old age.
7. The realization that you are actually going to have an old age -- and some money set aside to help fund it.
8. An email address, a voice mailbox, and a bank account -- all of which nobody has access to but you.
9. A dream so big it scares you.
10. At least One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you cry.
11. A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a pair of totally unpractical shoes.
12. Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself, just because you deserve it.
13. The belief that you are worthy of treating yourself with respect.
14. A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine, a push-up bra and a great pair of spankx
15. At least One recipe you cook well to impress the fussiest of guests
16. A place to go just to think... where you can be completely alone with your thoughts.
17. At least one child who looks to you for guidance and advice...even if he or she isn't your own.
18. The knowledge on how to break-up with a man or confront a friend without losing your temper or your self respect.
19. At least one lover who knew exactly how to touch you to make your toes curl.
20. The memory of a kiss so powerful...just the thought of it could sustain you into old age.
21. The medical history that runs in your family so you can take care of YOU!
22. The ability to live on your own and not be dependent on anyone.
23. An outfit that feels like you are in a cocoon and safe from the world...its usually fleece or flannel
24. The ability to let go of the hurts from your childhood and embrace the fact that your parents did the best they could with the skills they had
25. One secret that makes you smile.
26. A memory that makes you cringe....because those memories were lessons that brought you to here
27. A journal full of your deepest thoughts
28. A person you can call at 4 in the morning because you're in a bind
29. The knowledge of what you are willing to accept and what you are not in a relationship
30. Something you do that is just for you and no one else.
31. A piece of jewelry that has sentimental meaning
32. An older woman in your life who embodies the traits you wanna develop in your old age.
33. A spirituality that feeds your spirit and nourishes your soul.
34. A soundtrack to your life that when you hear it on the radio you sing at the top of you lungs
35. Someone or something you LOVE with your whole heart
36. A to do list that never gets completely checked off
37. Enough money to run away in case you have to
38. A purpose to rise out of bed every morning
39. The ability to look in a mirror and love the ripples and bumps and wrinkles that stare back at you....because you earned them all over time.
40. The ability to say NO without having to add anything further.
41. A hobby that you can get lost in for hours.
42. A hole in your heart from losing someone you have loved deeply...
43. Done at least one thing kind for someone that has no way to ever repay your kindness...
44. A "Been there - Done that" T-shirt to starting over from scratch..whether it be from a divorce, a career change, a massive loss or surviving life's curve ball.
45. A photo album full of memories..even if it's on a flash drive or saved to the cloud.
46. A passport... Up to date and ready to be stamped for the next adventure.
47. At least one grey hair, wrinkle and saggy body part.... If you don't.. Something's wrong.
48. An accomplishment that's all yours...outside of your children, not tied to your spouse...something you have done or created all on your own.
49. The knowledge of who you are as a woman. What makes you happy and what is no longer tolerated.
50. The understanding that 50 is not over the hill...its not even close to the hill.... There is no hill even on the horizon....cuz you still have shit to do....

Monday, March 28, 2016

Francesca Battistelli - If We're Honest (Live)

Truth is harder than a lie
The dark seems safer than the light
And everyone has a heart that loves to hide
I'm a mess and so are you
We've built walls nobody can get through
Yeah, it may be hard, but the best thing we could ever do, ever do

Bring your brokenness, and I'll bring mine
'Cause love can heal what hurt divides
And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest
If we're honest

Don't pretend to be something that you're not
Living life afraid of getting caught
There is freedom found when we lay
our secrets down at the cross, at the cross

Bring your brokenness, and I'll bring mine
'Cause love can heal what hurt divides
And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest
If we're honest

It would change our lives
It would set us free
It's what we need to be

Bring your brokenness, and I'll bring mine
'Cause love can heal what hurt divides
And mercy's waiting on the other side

If we're honest
If we're honest

This is where I take apart a song that I find mindful for me, for my Truth.

Truth is hard, especially when you are self reflecting.  It has to be truthful about oneself.  I am learning, w/the help of my counselor.  Lie, means you need to keep track & that's not me, just start from the beginning & tell the truth, be honest, it's like telling a friend that something is stuck in their teeth....
Dark can be safe & can be scary, to me it's not the Truth, it's denial.  A dark hole!  Yes, we are a mess, be truthful about this!  By building our, my walls, I don't have to own up to my mistakes & can just hide away from the truth, it's like that day where you want to stay in bed & pull the covers over my head....again, not dealing w/whatever situation I am in, that to me, isn't the truth.

My Truth, I am broken & I can be fixed....this is changing my life.  Love can heal!

Now, Love can heal, however, as I have said, my opinion, it does take 2....no matter the relationship kids, siblings,friends, family, ex's, at work w/co-workers, bosses, managers, no matter the mix, most all can be repaired, but if once a cheater, then always, I'm not sure, been there....

Yes, Love can heal, included peace, communication, compassion, listen, patience......and more,..by coming together, being broken together, all can mend.

Seek help, seek advice, seek friends, journal, read the right books,
This can change our lives, this is changing my life.
Not to be in the dark.
Step out.
Take that risk.
Be Honest, it does get easier!
Does this make sense?

I am no counselor, yes, life is hard, but the moment that I have opened my eyes up, Nov 2009, I have lost a lot.
But I have pushed forward as I am in search of the truth, my truth, my journey. I can't wonder or help another w/their's, just me.  My Yellow Brick Road that I a taking one step @ a time.
What's my Truth, yes I will get there, but for now, for the World to know, one step at a time.
As you can see, I haven't been here on much, in some time.
As my Blog is changing, I have been thinking about changing this all up.
I used to be on more to be in touch w/family, but now, it's more turning into a Journal & my feeling have come out in songs, lyrics.
Yes, more Christian songs, as too, past of my Journey, finding my spiritual way too, is very important, that's another topic.....to start I was told to go & then we wouldn't even discuss our teachings, learnings from Church services.
Anyway, as I am finding y Truth, more will come out.  I can grow & that's my goal....

Here I am a little seed, just that little girl growing up, trying to be molded, pushing away the heavv dirt, growing, stretching into the sun-light.....looking for the approval......more to come...