Wednesday, November 27, 2013

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace.
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, prosperity.
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering.

All the while, You hear each spoken need. 
Your love is too way too much to give us lesser things.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?

What if your healing comes through tears?


What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear.
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near.
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love.
As if every promise from Your word is not enough.

All, the while, You hear each desperate plea.
And long that we'd have faith to believe.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?


What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win;
We know that pain reminds this heart, that this is not, this is not our home.
It's not our home.

Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?


What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life;
Is a revealing of greater thirst that a world can't satisfy?

And what if trials of this life, the rain, the 

storms, the hardest nights;

Are Your mercies in disguise?


What is your color??

Purple

Your Aura is Purple!
Personality: Purples hold themselves to sky high standards, and are always very graceful. Purple is envied, idoli
zed, and copied without even realizing it. They are an icon for those who know you. While it is hard to be a perfectionist, rest assured it’s paying off! 
Purple is the most down to earth aura, they are the typical guy or gal next door. Purples may think they are better than others but deep inside they know they are not. Purple is very practical. Other auras take a liking intopurple. Idealistic and thoughtful, they have the mind and ideas to change the world. Purple has the charisma of a great leader.Purple always seems to know what to say or do in every situation they are confronted with. They exercise good judgment daily. They don’t agonize too much about their decisions, the right answer just seems to come to them. Purples have one of the most active imaginations, but tend to be more focused on what could be potentially possible than dreaming about the impossible.Purples live a well balanced life and prefer to stay as calm as possible.Having a personality color purple or violet as your favorite color means you are sensitive and compassionate, understanding and supportive, thinking of others before yourself. You are a gentle and free spirit. Purples feelings run deep and you can be quite sensitive to hurtful comments from others, although you would never show it. People are drawn to your charismatic and alluring energy. You are usually introverted rather than extroverted and may give the impression of being shy although this is not the case. You are creative and like to be individual in most of your endeavors, including your dress and home decoration - you love the unconventional. You are idealistic, and often impractical, with a great imagination, Purples tend to look at life through rose-colored glasses. People who don't understand you sometimes think you are eccentric because you spend so much time in your fantasy world. You inspire others with your creative thinking and your ability to deal positively with adversity. Purples are very intuitive and quite psychic. You are a generous giver, asking for little in return except friendship. You can be secretive, with even your closest friends not really knowing you well. You dislike responsibility and have difficulty dealing with real day-to-day problems. You dislike being part of the crowd. You don't like to copy others and you don't like them to copy you. You are a visionary, with high ambitions, dreams and desires, and a compulsion to help humanity and to improve the planet earth. You often hold positions of power because you are visionary, but you delegate to others all the minor details that you aren't interested in. You like to have the best of everything, so you aim high. Being the free spirit you are, you love to travel to experience different cultures and meet new people. You are a good judge of character and sum others up quite quickly and accurately, although you usually see the best in everybody. Time means little to you and you are often late for everything. You trust the flow of the Universe to take care of everything. You can sometimes appear arrogant and conceited if operating from a negative perspective. You can be selfish and self-indulgent as you don't like being imposed upon by others beliefs and regulations.

Love Life: You're very passionate but often too busy for love. You need a partner who sees your vision and adopts it as their own
Yellow: Way to immature to meet our standards!
 
Pink: If outgoingness is on our “Have to have list” pinks are also one of the top choices for Purples
Green: Greens are way too shy and may be overlooked
Blue: Blue is one of the others that may meet our standards. They are deep and Sincere and is an awesome mate!
OrangeCan be just a little bit more mature than Yellow, but nawh I think we’ll pass
White: Way deep inside purples may have this strange feeling for whites 
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Perfect Color Love Match: 
Red is the perfect mate for a purple they meet every standard of ours.
Friendship Color: Blue is the perfect friend for a purple due to there introvert attitude
Color Opposite: Your color wheel opposite is Yellow. While yellow people may be wise, they lack the manners and class needed to impress you
 
Words that Describe Purple: Intuitive, Seeking, Creative, Kind, Self-Sacrificing. Growth Oriented, Strong, Very Wise, and Rare
 
Purpose of Life: Saying Truths That Other People Dare Not Say

Try this, it's a quiz out on the web, haven't a clue where it is, a cuz gave me a link but I can't copy this:

Monday, November 25, 2013

I've Gotta Be Me



Whether I'm right or whether I'm wrong
Whether I find a place in this world or never belong
I gotta be me, I've gotta be me
What else can I be but what I am

I want to live, not merely survive
And I won't give up this dream
Of life that keeps me alive
I gotta be me, I gotta be me
The dream that I see makes me what I am

That far-away prize, a world of success
Is waiting for me if I heed the call
I won't settle down, won't settle for less
As long as there's a chance that I can have it all

I'll go it alone, that's how it must be
I can't be right for somebody else
If I'm not right for me
I gotta be free, I've gotta be free
Daring to try, to do it or die
I've gotta be me

I'll go it alone, that's how it must be
I can't be right for somebody else
If I'm not right for me
I gotta be free, I just gotta be free
Daring to try, to do it or die
I gotta be me


Wow, an oldie, real oldie.......just hit me like a ton of bricks on my Saturday morning, trying to sleep in & have the wonderful migraine!

Being wrong doesn't mean you are wrong, I am learning...I believe this is how I will become old & wise, learning, educating myself & yes making as many boo-boo's as I possibly can!

Finding my place in the world, I don't think I will.  Being realistic.  The world is huge.....I have enough problems trying to drive to another city or state, let alone the world....
I do not want to be anyone else.

My life, My Journey.

Not that I truly want to be alone, I am ok w/me & my time & I right for me...someone else can't accept this fact, again, I am ok!

Yes, free...freedom...not just that I live in the U.S.A., home of the free, but in my own deep down inside, free......free of worries, free of stress, free from my demons.......& most, free from my past.  

It's the truth, what else can I do?  Take care of me, that's what!

Going back to my Journey, my "Yellow Brick Road" & "where blue birds fly over the rainbow & why can't I?"  
I can!











Sunday, November 24, 2013

Somewhere...............



My all time favorite movie...in many many ways....

Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high 
There's a land that I've heard of once in a lullaby. 
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue 
And the dreams that you dare to dream, 
Really do come true. 

Someday I'll wish upon a star 
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me. 
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, 
Away above the chimney tops, 
That's where you'll find me. 

Somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly 
Birds fly over the rainbow 
Why then, oh why can't I? 
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow 
Why, oh why can't I? 

I just finished watching a special edition on The Wizard Of Oz....a lot of facts, out-takes, deleted scenes, alot of narrated info that I had no idea!

But I can tell you that all that spoke of this particular song, all can relate, all can have their own meaning too.....is there no place like home, tho?

While loving this movie as a kid.....as I have watched this over the years, growing up & thru each stage of my life, so much has come to light......,my meaning has changed.  It's a journey.  How I go with it is that I need to find me, not necessarily find me, but who am I?  Inside.  I have had this life that I was taught & thought, my life was this one way, but in the truth, reality,  

What's your journey?  Is it as simple as clicking your heels 3 times?  This is my Journey & what I make of my life, take charge, take & make changes, step outside my comfort zone.  The ones on my life will understand, & if they can't, then that is their Journey, their process.


Tuesday, November 05, 2013

David Letterman - Cher: "I Hope You Find It"



These clouds are goin' nowhere darlin' 
Rain keeps comin' down 
I just thought I'd try to call you 
Before you got too far outta town 
And I hope that you get this message 
That I'm leavin' for you 
Cause I'd hate that you left without hearin' the words that I needed you to 

(Chorus) 
And I hope you find it 
What you're lookin' for 
I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be and so much more 
And I hope you're happy wherever you are 
I wanted you to know that, and nothin's gonna change that 
I hope you find it 

Am I supposed to hang around and wait forever? 
The last words that I said 
But that was nothin' but a broken heart talkin' darlin' 
You know it wasn't what I meant 
Call me up, let me know that you got this message that I'm leavin' for you 
Cause I'd hate that you left without hearing the words that I needed you to 

(Chorus) 
And I hope you find it 
What you're looking for 
I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be and so much more 
And I hope you're happy wherever you are 
I wanted you to know that, and nothin's gonna change that 
I hope you find it 

Whatever it is I bet that you are missing here 
Well I hope you find it 
What you're looking for 
I hope it's everything you dreamed your life could be and so much more 
And I hope you're happy wherever you are 
I wanted you to know that, and nothin's gonna change that 
I hope you find it 

I hope you find it....

You know who you are......no further words are necessary......all my love....

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Let's Make a Deal

The relationship just wasn't working out, and I wanted it to so badly. I kept thinking if I just made myself look prettier, if I just tried to be a more loving, kind person, then he would love me. I turned myself inside out to be something better, when all along, who I was was okay. I just couldn't see what I was doing, though, until I moved forward and accepted reality.
  —Anonymous

One of the most frustrating stages of acceptance is the bargaining stage. In denial, there is bliss. In anger, there is some sense of power. In barraging, we vacillate between believing there is something we can do to change things and realizing there isn't.

We may get our hopes up again and again, only to have them dashed.

Many of us have turned ourselves inside out to try to negotiate with reality. Some of us have done things that appear absurd, in retrospect, once we've achieved acceptance.

"If I try to be a better person, then this won't happen...If I look prettier, keep a cleaner house, lose weight, smile more, let go, hang on more tightly, close my eyes and count to ten, holler, then I won't have to face this loss, this change."

There are stories from members of Al Anon about attempts to bargain with the alcoholic's drinking: "If I keep the house cleaner, he won't drink.... If I make her happy by buying her a new dress, she won't drink... If I buy my son a new car, he'll stop using drugs."

Adult children have bargained with their losses too: "Maybe if I'm the perfect child, then Mom or Dad will love and approve of me, stop drinking, and be there for me the way I want them to be." We do big, small, and in between things, sometimes-crazy things, to ward off, stop, or stall the pain involved with accepting reality.

There is no substitute for accepting reality. That's our goal. But along the way, we may try to strike a deal. Recognizing our attempts at bargaining for what they are - part of the grief process - helps our lives become manageable.

Today, I will give others and myself the freedom to fully grieve losses. I will hold myself accountable, but I will give myself permission to be human.

Wow, where have I been.  I am having more & more "lite-bulb" moments where I try to hard...& who am I kidding?  Who am I trying to impress?  It should be just me.......Be well & Happy

Monday, November 04, 2013

I always flow towards music.....heals...



7:42 in the morning
8 seconds before it all sinks in
Put your best face on for the world
Fake another smile and just pretend
But you're just puttin' off the pain
Nothing's ever really gonna change

[Chorus:]
So let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Let it burn to the worst degree
May not be what you want, but it's what you need
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
And let it hurt
Yeah, let it hurt

3:28 in the morning
Countin' up the spaces between the rain
You're gettin' used to the rocks at the bottom
Your heart goes numb, but the lonely stays the same
And that's the price you're bound to pay
And there's really nothing anyone can say
Oh, there's only just one way

[Chorus:]
So let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Let it burn to the worst degree
May not be what you want, but it's what you need
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
So go on
Yeah, let it hurt

You might just find you're better for it
When you let go and you learn
To let it hurt, let it bleed
Let it take you right down to your knees
Oh...
Sometimes the only way around it
Is to let love do it's work
So go on
And let it hurt
Oh, let it hurt

7:42 in the morning
8 seconds before it all sinks in


Why is it that we "have" to put THAT FACE on???  Why is it so hard sometimes, some days? Doing this easy feat, it is difficult, the truth, in today's world, or even as long I can remember, it is much easier to grouse, complain & and just be angry.  Sad.  

Why can't people be in that moment, you don't have to analyze the situation, but, just but, there is a true, the truth, why we act the way we act.  Sit.  Be @ peace.  Realize that @ that moment, or any of the moments you feel, you may not liek what you are going thru, but "let it hurt"  There is no way around it, & it "may not be what you want, but it's what you need."


I can tell you this, in my experience over my last 3+ years, so yes recent, there is no way around a tough situation, but to hold your head up high, no matter what pain or happiness your are going thru, and walk straight thru.  It is difficult, but I'll tell you, it is much quicker to do this work & deal with the "problem," life, then to ignore the pain.  


Take care of yourself.  The right people will be in your life to assist, go ahead, ask, if these friends/family can't assist you, then you know right then & there, that relationship wasn't meant to be and the other fact is this, we all process everything differently & need time, just like we do, so respect back, pay it forward.  


Be the best you can be, thru everything, be true to yourself, & your JOURNEY will be the very best for you...not them.



I am trusting in my Journey!